Tell Your Son to Leave Me Alone

"tell your son to leave me alone" was the text mom got just before we found out you were back together with the ex girlfriend...and she's coming to the hospital to see you...wonder if you'll remember this by the morning time.  There is one thing in this entire world that all your friends and family can't protect you from...that is yourself.  All I can do is sit back and wait.  Keeping wishing on every star that you will continue to recover, and some where in the mix...maybe you'll start remembering each day in secession. 
There comes a time for self perseverance, my brother...  We have a bond that could never be broken...you know this.  I hope the next time I hear about your life, it won't be someone calling from an emergency room.  I can't protect you from yourself, but I certainly won't watch either.
I'm a phone call away when she breaks you again Goonie.
I love you.
May

I missed the company picnic

Maia gives it to me straight, but these people in here are crazy and I am not,

Aunt Dee tells me she loves me,

Dad tells me all about himself,

Elyssa and I remain good friends but I dont want to talk to Kyle until I get better,

I got a call from one of the guys, he was at the company picnic,

Mom is going along with whatever I say,
Cynthia was here today,

Cheryl called to tell me all about herself again, think I am done with her ma,

I told Megan she could kick her ass,

I really miss my WP brothers,

Talked to the shrinks all day today,

It all seems normal doesnt it ~ some of these people have absolutely no way to speak to him or visit him ~

Babe you were in a motorcyle accident ~ your clavicle is broken and your brain is bruised things are jumbled in your brain and the doctors want to help you get it straight. Everytime I talk to you and things get jumbled, you have to take a shower, we talk at least 3 times a day. I am sure you are not showering 3 times a day.

GOOBYE!!!! MOM!!!!

You will be back soon son! I pray for it everyday :)

Send a letter Maria

YES I WOULD LOVE A CARD OR A LETTER!!

Jason Eric Muxlow Room 410
C/O Tampa General Hospital
Rehabilitation Center
6 Tampa General Circle
Tampa, Florida 33606


Everyday if you are obsessive compulsive I do not mind :)

You have to turn the ringer on

Yesterday your social worker gave you bag of clothes to get dressed for your trip across the bridge to rehab. "Bless his heart he took the bag to the restroom and came out dressed"


"He explained the shoes were not his, but were his step-dads, however they would work for the trip."


It would be three more hours before they took you across the bridge. In the meantime we had a chat and you said you were watching a race that took place in the desert. Such peace the races give you, whether it was it was in your mind or on television, I do not care, I can hear the peace in your voice. "Mom, I have to go I have to take a shower." (I am finding this my cue to say goodbye)


Today we spoke at your new room after the nursing unit realized the ringer on your phone was off~and I worry of the care you will receive~again you are in his hands and I have to believe he will take good care of you.

You had a great conversation with Megan and it brightened my heart! I spoke to sis, she is having a much deserved night to herself tonight.

Your extended family is on their way this weekend to bring you some clothes, sketch pad and pencils.

God Bless them all!!

KEEP LOOKING UP!! HE IS THERE!

50 First, First Day After the Accidents

Aw Jay...dang, I feel so bad! Every day either mom or I have to tell you again that you've been in an accident and what all went down between you and the girl you parted with.  We feel terrible telling you because every time we do, it's like the first time you've heard it.  I reminded you of a conversation you had with a friend just before your accident.  You vaguely remember it....and certainly don't recall the entire conversation.  I was the one who told you what had happened today.  Yesterday was Mom's turn. 
It seemed as though you understood very clearly what I was saying...and I was thankful for that.  Some times, when we tell you this story...you insist that the clavicle is an injury from high school...that the bruising and scabbing on your head is from a "do rag"...broken ribs are from some thing else...but today you seemed to accept that you had a bike accident.  You said that you loved me very much but that you had to get off the phone because you needed to go outside.   I'm not sure if you really went outside?  or what?  I'm thinking maybe you went to smoke or something...But just before you disconnected, you said, "I'll call you back from my cell phone"
And my heart just sank.  That thing you keep dialing as a "cell phone" is the remote control to the tv....the social worker has (and has had for a couple days now) your cell phone as well as some of your personal affects. You get upset when people don't text you or phone you back because you believe you've texted or phoned them via the tv remote.
Perhaps moving into rehab soon! YAY!  The gal you recently broke up with (wow crazy town brudda) brought your identification to Aussie (?) today.  Megan P sent me a text...once again, Megan to the rescue!! Haha = ) So now that we can officially say what name is attached to that mug of yours, they should be able to get you over to that rehab center and locked into emergency medicaid. Wahoo!
I was told today that the rehab center was going to be pretty intense.  I hope you're not going to be a pain in the butt! hahaha
You remind us of the movie "50 First Dates"...where we are literally reminding you of where you are and why and how at the start of every day.  The doctors say this is the way to start the day, and this is what we should be doing.
Your bike accident, what the injuries are, and the break up....you had a really bad day that monday...Holy Grilled Cheezus Jay!

Short Term Memory Loss

Well, they gave you three words Jay.  You were supposed to remember them as well as remember the order they were given in.  You were able to recall the first one...but at least you were able to do that!  The doc says, at this time, you are suffering from short term memory loss.
There are many times when you are "with it" but then certain things happen where it reminds us that you have been hurt. = (
Like today for example.  You were dialing my phone number on the remote control...believing that it would call me.  And I realize, I don't believe I have your cell number....hmmm...I'll have to remedy that.
Anyhow, today was a "trying to identify" you day! Not an easy thing to do! They went to the DMV to get a print out of your record with your photo on it...but no luck.  Just need something with your mug on it and your name as well.  There is no other like you! But that's not enough for the paperwork.
I miss you.  I know that's not a status update, lol! But I really do miss you.
We heard more about the rehab for your damaged bean.  Apparently, friends and family contact is supposed to stay at a minimum.  It has something to do with the recovery of the brain...reducing stimulus and allowing you to focus...focus...on recovery.  The audiologist also saw you and said you have a very minimal loss of speech...most likely a temporary thing.
When you are asked a question that seems as though it confuses you...your eyes go wide open and you search around the room.  Almost like you are looking for the answers on the walls.  I imagine there are times when you must get pretty scared...or confused...not being able to recall things, or not being able to understand "why"....
I hope you get to start your rehab soon brother...the sooner you start, the sooner you'll finish.

Roadway Sign Language

Do you have any idea how hard it is to find a photo of you where you aren't making either "the shocker" or the "middle finger"?
**sigh**
Thats my Jay!