A Sisters Selfishness

Jay...ok please forgive me for not posting on how your day was...I just got on my computer to do so...but mom sent me a video to give me an idea of just how confused you are...and I am having a very selfish moment. I want to scream and cry...I feel like a part of ME is broken. there is a heavy feeling on my chest and a choke stuck in my throat. Its just not fair...and there is a storm in my head that keeps screaming, THIS ISN'T FAIR! i want to shake my fists at the sky and curse this "GOD"......i want to fall to pieces and cry and pound my fists into the earth....so I think....I'm just going to go to bed for now Goonie. I promise to post on your blog first thing tomorrow. I love you Jay. My Jay.